Wednesday, July 30, 2008

slept kinda late last night, n wake up early today.
went college did payment , meet ms malar , library to spent time wait my mom...
n something happen in library door... okay.... cant mention here coz need me demo only can feel it... but conclusion is ' proven lunci '.

however, i end up follow CY's car back home.
got gossip session with carmen, MY & CY while waiting carmen reach her time to mcb block lecture. oh well..... gossip girls ~

reached home, suppose to bathe BeE but end up catch movie with lala... Dark Knight
I personally like this movie, although is long hours but is nice !
I m impressed with the so real half face...they just made it looks so real !
okay... mass commies did great job !
sigh.... mass com... my choice of course before i step into tbs.... however, nvm la....since i m half to business course d....

* i hope what Mr. George said is real..... please...must be real... thanks

Monday, July 28, 2008

开学了!

妈妈突然说我不漂亮了,说我憔悴。
妈妈不懂我的‘最近’,这代表我隐藏得好?
不懂不懂。。。


爸爸,最近一直按计算机。
我知道为什么。
吃着甜橙的我,顿时觉得苦酸。
爸爸安静的计算的样子,我心里不好受。
心理突然想说:“爸爸,辛苦了!”

觉得自己没能帮轻爸爸负担,
爸爸,你辛苦吗?

Saturday, July 26, 2008

miracle, can u please come to me ????
i need u.......

i m seriously dead....
what happen to me recently????
y...???? pls tell me what happen to me recently.....

i seriously need to pass my econs... seriously.... please.....
dear uniSA, can u please pass my econs???? i beg u.... please....

I WISH FOR MIRACLE, PLEASE COME TO SAVE MY ECONS, COULD U ???
i m seriously need u.... please..... i m begging..... please....

yours truthfully,
liong tsu zian
25/07/2008

Friday, July 25, 2008

MUFFIN D@Y

Went susan's crib with CY, MY & clare for muffin day ! wheee ^^
overall, the process quite smooth n our baby muffin is on earth after the hour of time.....
taste not bad.... yea la.... not that serious bad la... eatable.... haha

after that, chill at susan's house n being camwhore with her lappie....
what i can say is, i m damn serious CAMWHORE ! i honestly admitl here....LOL
i will upload the lappie camwhore pics soonie once i get from susan. :p
let the pictures talk:
step 1
step 2


step 3

TADAAAAAA... our baby oreo muffin on earth ~
the gila posing but random....
back our ass home bout 5.30pm.....
once i reach home, dad told me bout BeE's runaway story...
stupid BeE, if u really runaway i will cry sadly wei , coz u part of my life d... i warn u ! no step out the gate without my permission... u so tiny, ppl's car cant see u .. dangerous ! promise me k?
okay, i pronous here, msn dun wan me, my hp nearly dun wan me, sad !
result on its way, super panic !
n one more thing..... i been told not studying abroad.... yea.... is obvious that i hoping study abroad... but dad made his final decision... so, yea....kinda emo.
n most emo is the words from dad :
dad: i got something tell u
me: oh?
dad: u study locally ok? it will be very tight finance if papa sent u oversea, coz that time didi is in college time too...
me: ooo..... ( seriously dun feel good)
dad: sorry yea, papa unable give u the chance to study oversea...
me: is ok papa, nvm... smile*
what made me felt worst is the SORRY from my dad....
a dad apologise to the daughter of unable sent her to study abroad.... i dunno how u guys feel, but it does gave me big impact, seriously.... i can really hug my dad n cry.. the feelings which words cant describe...
i mayb sad of my dreams of studying abroad has been call off but the worse feelings i sense how my dad feels, he even apologize to me ~ this mean he knew what i wished for my dream, but he just cant fullfill his girl's dream that made him feel sorry?? i m speechless
I seriously realize this month, i m really into emo-ing....
super sad of the relationship thingy, all the holiday plans just call off, n now this....
oh dear, what should i need to do for myself???
i feel myself losing balance in emotional... i m serious

Thursday, July 24, 2008

tuesday

catched movie -RED CLIFF with cy & lala at summit...
i love the story line n the genre but dumb ass the ending is " to be continue"...
can u imagine the feelings when u were expecting the great war happening but turn up the stupid word on screen???? all of us is like ZHA DOU !
is like a feeling sort of got cheated, rather watch DARK KNIGHT man...atleast got some proper ending... lol

after that went book fair & finally got a book on hand then off home.
now atleast i got some book with me cure my boringness.. hehe

wednesday

visited clare's house, & i love her room so so so so much especially her individual bathroom.... ^^
dinner with clare, kok & susan at some mamak who serve nice food at subang.
the effect is i m still damn full till now... omg~ fats increASE !

had a great chat with them, n suddenly talk bout exam....
fork n spoon really sense the sudden panic... heartbeating real fast~
clare treat us satay...thx clare.... ^^

then kok sudden ask : " xian, how r u? "
for the past month i will tears down when anyone ask me this question, but today i did not...
yea.... this mean xian is fine..hehe... cheers for me ? ^^

kok is so inlove with my BeE, he even can pole dancing with BeE at my house compound.. peeps...imagine that.... LOL
i suggested him marry with my dog la... since BeE is a bitch. :p HAHAHAHAHAHA

found another old song- 'keep holding on' by arvil lavigne.... according to me, NICE SONG !

I m looking forward for tomorrow muffin day...wheeeeeeeee ^^
hope everything go well.....

Monday, July 21, 2008

i m here to post again~ haha.... hello~ means i m still alive la.... LOL

didnt know i m a good reader... read what?
i been reading ppl's blog, articles searched in google...
i m really pik cek with my msn... god knows what happen to it...

to my dear msn:
Am I really that not pretty that u wanna avoid me using u??? why you keep on not working??? !!!
okay.... i m insane~

I did realize i m not really good nor interested in politics... seriously, i found myself had zero communication with politics... is not a good sign coz i m 20 now & guess kids of 12 had better politics knowledge than me. I wish i learn more on country or world's happenings but i just flip over those page when i saw 'government thingy' on paper. sigh...... terrible

night life= alcohol + club + social ?
city people enjoy night life? or youngsters enjoy it most?
hmm..what i could say not everyone love night life...same to some friends around me
however, i admit myself is desirable in night life.. or mayb i doesnt given the chance to explore it? coz i m still daddy's & mummy's girl? =.=" whateva~

to me night life is not must involve alcohol, clubs or so called crazy night.
night life can be some chit- chatting with warm tea? HAHAHAAHAHA....
oh well~ guess u guys know what i trying to say...

i remembered once i mentioned that if i dun have curfew guess i'll be night outings daily..haha... isn't that sounds cool???
n one of my fren answered me : luckily u got curfew from parents !!
hmm....is a good or bad???
if i not given curfew, i mayb over crazy outside but who knows i actually behave myself??
y is ppl thinking night life is something worse? it should not go that way....
a kid who night out means is a bad kid compare a kid who a great smoker ??
mayb i m still not a parent & i don't think like how parents thoughts....

To me, a person's life goes on their way in the end. A kid was mornitored well by parents given strict home rules, all the while the parents taught they got a great son which made them proud by having great academic result being good boy but who knows the boy got involve in criminal or drugs in sudden?? so what can be judge then??

even my mom will complain smoking students in my college when she fetch me but there is once i answer her that " u still got a son who cant predict whether he will get involve in cigarattes". I maybe rude of saying this to her, but is real thou... If one day, my bro a smoker, what can she judge then? Her son sign up as a bad kid???
I m not saying what, but my main point is there is nothing to predict, now good doesn't mean forever good as there is uncertainties in life....

weird that i m saying these life philosophy.. LOL

My BeE, she is going 5 months old... time past fast !
she grow taller n i hardly able cuddle her like last time, due to weight & size increased... hahaha...
but somehow, she is still cute... yea...i mean CUTE ! not 'ugly but adorable' ! ^^
ohya ! she know how to play ball d.. her mouth finally big enough to catch a tennis size ball.. haha.. However, she is selfish ! cant share toys ! ( like i wanna share her toys... =.=" )

wow.... just realise is such along post... :p
k la, bye peeps.

.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

whats the difference between gossip & scandal?
XOXO GOSSIP GIRL ~

i m done with ' gossip girl' drama last night, overall is a nice drama...is about youngsters' life n so do their family "interesting" stories. wht i can said is ang mor really OPEN...LOL
kissing in public ( which i can accept) so such normal among them yet they can just have sex with among friends.. n thats a great WOW to me.... lol... ( sex among friends really not in my list.... u can say me kolot, but thats currently N O to me ! )

In 'gossip girl', Nate is definately absolute HOT man ! he is just the simply HOT... hello~ is F* HOT !!!!!!
Chuck, the rabbit guy ! real rabbit! however, i admire his mature n supports towards friendship n his finally sister..
what i got super emo is the ending where the scene of Serene n her bf got their final talk & the last dance.... sigh.... it wont made u tears down but damn emo after that... the emoness which words cant discribe n made me almost sleepless last night... what a drama...or mayb because it kindly sort of similar to me??? lol.....
overall, its a good ones.

today, went lunch ( birthday celeb of xue ping) with NS frens n thier bfs.... taaaa.... imagine i m the only single among the group while others were in pairs... speechless.... lol.... n Happy birthday xue ping... ^^
after the 2 hours ++ lunch, i dun feel going back home..therefore i decided to have a walk at pyramid... yea...alone... haha...
walked in the crowd of ppl, window shopping, headed to popular n book searching... got a book in hand n while going to pay...... piak* didnt bring enough money.... mood lost 85%... =.="
n i m so lazy to go atm..... taaaaaaaaaaaa........ save money !

walked n walked n walked.... is definately a crowd in pyramid due to sunday but i only sense silence in me... yea... the surrounding is not quiet yet the silences inside me... oh well....
passby chicken harts the place we had dinner before, n flashback appears... damn it !
look in & damn f* that i still remember the table we sat... the next minute speed away from there... lol ( m i living with memories? )

i do feel wanna sit down n had a drink... reached starbucks then i changed my mind, coz is full of ppl there... they r not customer but ppl just sit down with their shopping bags on floor by not having any drink with them...kids r yelling & running around... n totally spoilt the mood of purchasing service from there... so walked off...

i do feel shopping alone is not that serious bad.. is sort of some discover feel.... LOL....
yala.... i m not insane k.... atleast i didnt go sing k alone... HAHAHAHAHA
spent bout few hours in pyramid with empty handed..but spent RM5 for parking.... =.="

hmmm.... m i an oldies song lover??? coz i found out i been downloading old songs recently...
n i m so in love with mariah carey-always be my baby, the song i used to dance last time.. ( like dunno how many years ago...) nice song .... more nice song... more more more.... hehe
hmmm....n i do feel like wanna learn dance.. such as latin dance,salsa dance,jazz, belly dance..haha...whateva dance la.... m i too fat to dance??? :p

guess thats all for now... tata

Friday, July 18, 2008

silent killer

I am super duper freaking f* BORED!

i cant imagine i got this kinda boring holiday man...
is like everyday stay home, home,home !!!!
someone save me from boring please~ LOL ( damn drama)

y m i posting this? coz i m seriously boring... serious
whateva la... atleast i m writing something for my day... =.="

i sleep late night, woke up late bout 10am++ daily....
what i did in home is either households, BeE's routine, potato couch, computers,day dreaming....etc

n i will got sudden panic due to my coming results... i really hope i can pass all...please~

n due to the boringness, i will easily back to emo... my godness =.="
thats the feelings i always got in mind:
is all comes to unexpectation
unexpected quick start, unexpected fast end,
unexpected what u said, what i heard, what we had....
cant we have a little longer...a while more maybe... untill we say goodbye in airport???
haha ! whats the diff ??
excuse me~ girl u cant have ur own prediction in life...
life is always uncertainties.... slap* enough !

dear JY is so enjoying in singpapore, she almost like vacation there daily...LOL
i m jealous la.... unlike me stood home like !@#$%^&*
n JY is mentioning Clarke Quay as the most wonderfull clubbing & dating place.... okay...she just got me hyper in the middle night... lol

i just feel myself cant be 24hours home daily nowadays, seriously...n i dunno y...
i will bring BeE have a garden walk in evening just to away from home... what on earth??
i miss the noisy girls gang that we used to be... talk non-stop... the famous noisy group ~
i miss Redang.... as redang was the great trip ever i had...or i should say i miss redang peeps...
i miss my baby blanket which thrown dunno how many century ago..=.="
i miss high school frens
i miss NS frens
i miss my teachers
i wanna sing Barney song ' i miss u, u miss me....' eh.... wrong lyrics... piak* swt..... :s
i dun miss him...ya...who say i miss him??? !!!! (crossing fingers)

besides Barney song, i sudden taught of "beca" song... yea...fork n spoon n jessie... lets sing the "beca" song... A moment like this ~ LOL

sigh.... what the f* i m talking n posting???
guess i m seriously bored till stunned....
okay.... ME NEED OUTINGS !!! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME??? LOL

is really lame post ! nite all ~

Thursday, July 17, 2008

yea.... finally able chat online with dear JY last night ( midnight).... i wanna go singpore ~ haha
gosh~ since langkawi trip was canceled, i really need some outing man.... so in NEED ! haha
aiayo.....mana saya punya outing kaki??? i need outing kaki wei ~ if not i really root home with spider web n mushroom on head ! imagine that~ i wont be prettty with spider web n mushroom la ~ hahaha....


lala damn geng lo...sms me said spent RM 200+ for one day shopping at midvalley...omg~ rich gal ! i rather spent on.......... hmm...dunno what should spent on too... =.="
okay ! make it spent on girls night out ! hello~ girls....when wanna on ???
to those who out station, faster move ur ass back to subang ! LOL

chee hau the spoiler, made me root home in fri n sat...! his fault ! wth
n he stupido wan, ask me do something but secret him as he is the creator..
n now bocor ! blame me somemore ! fish*


so what i did the whole day?
i really a home girl today....
1) did households ( clean up house) imagine the alots work which i hardly enjoy do it :p
2) bathe BeE
3) being driver of my bro to tuition
4) be a photographer for BeE

here come with some cutie photos:
* ta daa~ the best cutie shot ^^
* the girlie sitting pose
* isn't she so adorable?


* the walking pose



* last but not least ! the wee wee pose...LOL

Monday, July 14, 2008

yea...its 14th of the month....
what can i say bout the 14th?
used to be a memorable day... yea..USED TO BE..
but, yea.... still be my memorable 14th in life...

guys, i m getting better... no worries...
not to say recover... but i sense the better of me compare the past whole month...
cant imagine the days i had in the past whole month..
those days i had which is so not like me...
is like i m the another person that totally no cheer at all... terrible...

but guess i m on my track back to the girl who love to smile, enjoying her life where she used to be in her 20 years life... yea... I'LL BE FINE ^^

i m not alone for those down days, frens n buddies r with me.. yea... the sweetest friendship...
advices, comments, scolding me dumb.....etc
yea... human nature... lol
but honestly, i didnt know i was loved by them untill what they did for me...
i m not left out by them... yea.... i would wanna say I LOVE U GUYS ~~ GREAT BIG HUG !
THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORTS...

yea.... I JUST LOVE U ALL SO MUCH !


love,
tsu/xian
ok.....today was a satisfied day...

woke up at bout 11.30am... haha..cool....
went family lunch then headed to giant for grocery shoppings....

called cousin who is in MMU, then decided visit him..
yea... i was the driver to there with bro n mom...
reach there bout 5pm then went yc at kopitiam... then visit his room... lol....

first thing i reach his room is...... play with his laptop... but guess what??? i played the wrong laptop... =.=" it was his roomate's laptop... omg! damn paise..... his laptop was keep in his cupboard due to some damage.... aiya...... i wanna hide my face !!!!!! seriously..... very very malu la... !!!!!!!

hang in his room awhile then we headed back home.....

then brought BeE to garden for some walk..... yea.... that cutie attract some ppl to have a view on her... haha....

about 8pm

kok n susan visit me ~ hehe..n thanks for the plant.... as i got something to do on my holiday... must take good care of it... water it with my full love... hahahaha....
yea...kok was so considerate n giving his ever advice n comment... n my dear fork n spoon as well... hugs

then we went dinner+ supper at murni with : greg, aaron, kt & clare.

n guess what????? chee hau the liar was at murni too..... somemore next table.... omg~ he really fated to meet us n got boom by us.... LOL.... dun care...he gonna treat us bkt .... :p

had cheese naan n honey dew special... yea....full.... satisfied...... fats increase !

got home bout 11.30pm.... n thx kt for the ride.....
n i found my another favorite song when on the way back in kt car.... its ' pocket full of sunchines' by natasha bedingfield..... nice song i can say !

overall, is a nice day i had... thx guys....
12/07/2008, saturday

family dinner by celebrating july babies : my aunt, uncle jimmy & cousin
went puchong ate n was great full... brrrp...
then jeng jeng jeng.... went sri hatarmas Irish pub with 大姑姑,小姑姑 & uncle jimmy.

since that was uncle jimmy n 大姑姑 big day, so let them decide the drink...
theres the menu goes : 4 big glass of stout... as uncle jimmy taugh i m a good drinker... =.="

the environment there not bad... alot ang mor.... susan...u heard??? ANG MOR :P

okay..... i been never able finish even a can of beer but that night i finish my big glass ! oh wow..... appluse~ ? but is damn freaking FULL......

n no tipsy at all..... wah haha... even my aunt saying me good in alcohol... hehe...

yea.... while enjoying the drink.. listening the adults ( like i m not a kid thou) talk bout their old times stories.... yea....they do had thier wonderfull young times.. hehe... okayy....so when bring me go club??? :p


let the pics show.....



* cheers ^^







in conclusion: M I AN ALCOHOLIC ???

Friday, July 11, 2008

july babies

10 july

HaPPiE 17th Birthday dear bro..... stay yeng... :p

love,
ur loving sis


11 july

Happie 20th Birthday dear Jessie girl..... love u muchie


love,
xian

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

random conversation title from mom

did some households, tidy up my room.
n is sad that langkawi trip is called off.... off....
imagine everything is planned,hotel is booked, did so many research... n it end up off...
hmm..... speechless.... but i m looking for alternative..

I seriously need some trip in this holiday... yea... WHY? there is a reason

while ironing clothes, mummy sudden ask : " how come u so long didnt go out with ho kwin?"
hmm....what should i answer???
in this moment i felt the sourness in deep heart...
i should tell ' we r not together d' but i m worry i will tears down in front her when i say this to her n end up making the mom worry the girl... no no no...bad idea...
so, i decide to tell when i m totally recover by saying: " he is on holiday trip with his frens"

then, as usual mom love to talk to BeE...
again, she said: " BeE also love to play with ho kwin last time when he visit our house"
me: " yea..... BeE just love to play with anyone"
mom: " izit? but BeE dun really play with brother's fren. mayb ho kwin got his skills in playing with dog, i remember u told me he own a dog rite? "
me: " yea"
mom: " so when is he going to australia ya?"
me: " next year"
mom: " eh... i taught u said before that he going this year? "
me: " he changed his mind"
mom: " oh...why ya? "
me: " dunno" ( hoping mom dun ask more)
mom: " u sometimes should alert ur own attitude ar, dun too over, sometimes think twice"
me: " ooo....." ( got pinch in heart)
mom: " like auntie bla bla complain her girl always change bf, sometimes alot bf doesnt means is a proud thing"
me: " ooo...." ( begging to stop in heart, going to tears down if continue)
mom: " last time ho kwin gave u flower when valentine? "
me: " yea" n saw mom was smiling.. ( sigh...)

finally, the boiling kettle sounds... mummy went to kitchen while i speed up to my room.

yea...thats the random conversation, the moment mom ask kinda more bout him.

my current feelings now is sour + sorrow= deep beath~

i was turning to be better these few days but now is like back to back.... sigh

mummy...... y last time u didnt ask more but ask now??? haha ( sacarstic laugh)

* jessie girl finally found the song we love but unknown title
the song is <> by jason marz
both us serious in love with this song... high 5 jessie !

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

收不起的思念

《收不起的思念》by 张小娴

以往讨厌散文的我,竟读了半本了。。
第一,打发时间。
第二,CY & JY 强力推荐。


这书还真的不错,其中的几章印象深刻。


阅了二分之一,躺在床上,
白色天花板,旋转的风扇,给了我空白和无言,
突然,觉得自己累了。




对,是真的累了。
身,累了。
脑,累了。
眼睛,累了。
心,也累了。



今夜,
我, 就是累了。


解脱? 我在寻找它。

JY visits day 2

yea...i m home... just back from breakfast dim sum with dear JY & CY....
stayed overnight at CY house...yea...what we did???

1) lunch at kim gary
- suppose to searching lengzai...but guess what??? kena tipu... ZERO lengzai there... LOL....
- ate super full lunch coz it is set lunch... yea.... i order horlicks again.... haha...
- got camwhore again in kim gary...haiz...biasa la... :p

2) sing k at RED BOX
- yea...is student price RM 7 ++... whee..... ^^
-as usual... sang those emo song... LOL...
- n GUEESS WHAT?? there is a great looking guy manager... OMG ~ he really in my list... LOL.....

3) window shopping
- i really window shopping while CY get to buy her favorite shoe that she desired long long time....
yea.... that blackie high heels... ^^

4) dinner at CY house
- CY mummy cooked great dishes, yea...i miss the steam egg.... is REALLY NICE !!!!!

5) night session ( midnight)
- what else??? ALCOHOLIC agian... wahahahaha
- this time is the little vodka... only 5 % , aiya....wont drunk okay.... but very filling... n JY is asking for more ( beer) ..lol...
- oh well.....besides girls talk.... n ofcoz camwhore again.... LOL


* JY's order : u r not allow to be emo or sad after tonight if not i sure wack u up....

here comes the camwhore pics :




* see the 2 cutie here....




* ya....the lame poser...



* alcoholic night 2: pyjamas theme... lol



* yea.... the poser....


p/s JY , i will gonna miss u very muchie... muacks muacks... take care ...HUGS..

love,
tsu

Monday, July 7, 2008

JY visits day 1

oh kay...... is the 9am now...n i just bathe my BeE...yea...she very good girl today...reward her some treats... ^^

JY came subang 3 days 2 night before she move her ass to singapore....
okayyy...what we did ya??

lunch with CY family at subang airport there, wow.....the 'wine chicken' taste really RICH man.... seriously my first time having so rich dishes...but overall the food there is good....yea....should lead my daddy eat there next time...haha.... ^^

after lunch, we spent out little shopping at giant....yea..... whats the purpose??? shop for alcohol... whee...... wahaha.... ALCOHOLIC.... ^^

at 7 pm, 3 of us dinner at Station 1 taipan with julian n my bro....
there serious nice place where can play darts... oh ya...didnt know my darts skills is that good untill i get kinda great shoot....wahaha... appluse~
besides, chor dai di n tumbling tower... ^^

almost 10pm, off our ass back home n shower... oh ya...CY the girl get to stay over night at my house...is seriously a surprise from her daddy..haha....

when the clock turns to nearly midnight.....ngek ngek ngek..... IS OUR DRINKIING TIME !!!!!

ask my bro open the wine for us, n ask him drink along...but end up he cabut... =.=" yala....he still not 18 yet... :p

so, 3 of us DOWN the whole bottle in bout 2 hours.... had some girls talk... yea....girls talk..haha...
is was a wonderfull night, yea...i enjoyed it muchie....
NONE OF US DRUNK ^^ aiyo...is only red wine :p


ohya...CY unable to sleep whole night coz she didnt bring her BEAR along... =.="
n now she is sleeping soundly while me n JY already awake... shhhhh.......

currently here for now... to be continue......

Saturday, July 5, 2008

dear readers,

i been reading articles whole night long....yea...surprisingly....

is kinda crazy that when assignments i so hate to read articles but now i m reading them in my holiday... LOL

i finish CY's 2 books n my own book... none of them is novel... but talk bout life...yea..i mean LIFE

my reading genre is bout life....oh wow.... should i proud of myself??? haha...
however, i wonder how my life would be??? yea...no one knows how thier life will be...

last time, i used to love novel that comes with non stop story line...but now... i love LIFE book....yeah....LIFE...^^ but not bible la... just i love reading the author's life or points of view...

there is a book that i m targeted damn long... but rite...the book is damn not cheap that i always pause myself purchasing it....
oh well...life is like that.. willing to spent RM 70 on a bag but not on a book???? :s what on earth????

oh well....what i gain from all the reading articles???
besides spending my time, ya...i do gain something from that... oh...reading is excellent !!! I LOVE READING !!!! ( crossing my fingers) :p

yea...today is all bout reading...

love,
xian who is shy but loving :p

Friday, July 4, 2008

okay....there is none topic here...
blog just to spent my time in this middle night of 1.47am...
y? becoz dear fork n spoon dun allow me sleep to accompany her waiting her cousin loading photos to her....
so....i m here write something to spent my time....
sigh....dear girl...i m really sleepy le....
however, this call the fork n spoon spirit that i m here spending my time for her... :p
wahaha...so fork n spoon r u touched??? tisk* tisk*

what else to write???
ohya..i did research on langkawi trip....yea....my holiday target... whee....hope it come true...^^

also, i cant wait to meet my dear JY as she be leaving m'sia soon...nvm... i will be stick in her room once i have the chance visit her in somedays...hehe... hmm...just miss her so muchie... must hug her lots..wahaha... i dun care how she reject..i will force her let me hug...wahaha....

N dear bear (CY), we long time didnt shopping d.... i miss the shopping time we had few months ago....

ohya, lala asking me go bar celona this saturday.... with her frens...sigh....i know none in her group la... so not really demand on that... I DEMAND KL club....hahaha.... hello~ who say clubbing is showing bad girl attitude??? i m still very good girl image okay.... bla bla bla...

serious nothing to write d.... fork n spoon allow me sleep not???? *sleepy eyes*

Thursday, July 3, 2008

just here....

yes...i m just back from pahang...
the night before pahang, alot flash back memories...yea...is back randomly...is back again...
i m not blaming nor hating myself of the flashing back...coz is all sweet n good ones....
ya.....my sweetest memories i can say....

i cant own them now but i owned them before...ya...they were with me....
ppl might not understand y m i that so sad... as even myself cant und that...
ya...is always a tight pain when the sad visit me, really a heartbroken...
is not heal yet..not heal now...mayb later...but no idea when will it be...

advice from most ppl : stop love him d... dun put on anyhope..there are more for u out there...

ya....i can und what they said n y they said that...
i might love him lesser as time goes on...but just not now...still dun think i able just stop right now although i know there is nothing there...
yea...i admit myself...the love is still here like it will not end.. oh dear~

ya....what i can do is face it silently...let the silence be...
tears wont be my cure but just something that release out my sufferness....
yes....he dint know how i pass by my days , how much tears i got in my nights, how down i m that nearly black off, how i hide all these without letting my parents notice as i dun wan they worry me... yea....he didnt know all this....

all the silence hurt is here...just here...

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

random outing

ok....i sleep till 1030am n dad ask BeE wake me up.... =.="

then i continue some stuff that i did half way last night....
then all the random outing starts here....

Random 1 : lunch with chin wei ( secondary buddy)

CW: hey, i taught u said wanna consult me? so when only u free???
me: oh ...i got dinner tonight so i m free for day time..
CW: ok ! lets lunch now... i fetch u after my shower
me: oh ok..

had lunch at a so called air-cond mamak, then had all the consulattion with him... oh well...
btw, i get something diff from his advice..

" i und ur feeling very well, i been like this even till now, so to make urself better is either u meet a new one or u stop thinking is ur fault that cause the break up, then u wont feel that bad"

" i know u will feel urself causing the break up n being very regret, i went through that last time, but one thing i wanna say is, love is always unable to handle once u really love a person"

"so u better make urself as busy as possible to avoid thinking the sad thing... especially u r in holiday now..."

thanks chin wei for being my consultan...

reach home bout 2pm n go online n another random outing happen

Random 2: photographing with andrew at putrajaya (NS buddy)

andrew: hey girl, u know the way to putrajaya?
me: roughly, y?
andrew: my assignmnets theme is sunset at putrajaya n i dunno the way to there...
me: oh, how ?
andrew: can i drive u n u lead me the way? bout 5 pm later...
me: oh ok....

once reach there, oh dear...the view there is so lovely nice... n i got few shot in my camera...


* warm blue sky n tough bridge

* the sun shines


* i love this most....

outing 3 : girls night out dinner ( not random but planned)

dinner at williams n murni....what a great eater are we...haha....
oh well...i m so inlove the longan ribena at williams, roti hawaii & cheese nan at murni...
as usual, we r the most noisy group n everywhere can notice us with the loud talking n laughing... :p
but in conclusion, i m freaking FULL.....
N ofcoz......we r camwhore again !!!! haha
* lala( driver), CY, jessie, susan n ME
okay....this is all the random outings that accompany u from being lonely n sad....so TSU ZIAN u better be ok..better be good...better heal ur wound... better make urself stronger... !!!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

night out~

wheee.....finally final is end...yeah....
however...i m worry my today paper....haiz....speechless..speechless...

oh well....hmmm.....deep breath ~


date: 30/06/2008
time: 4.50pm - 11.30pm
venue: 1U, the curve
ppl: lala, meiyan,jessie, fork&spoon

after our paper, i return home n refresh myself (litttle make over), then off to 1U n have some shoppings...yeah.....

ohya, before that we visit susan new house n i just love her room mirrorso much...haha...jessie agreed with me....
the purpose to 1U is lala wanted to buy bikini for her coming lagoon visit, she just so demand on bikini..i wonder y...haha...walked quite a few shops n finaly she got one !

had dinner at KFC, then we off our ass to the curve.....wahaha.....

once reach the curve, decison making strategy happen... Scarlet or Laundry??

Laundry: alot ppl, no music but a big screen for euro....
Scarlet: freaking less ppl, but got music...price kinda reasonable
conclusion: SCARLET !


when we reach there, there is only table of ppl there due to the still early time....
our group decision is NO BEER....so we order LIQUOR lo..... :p

jessie: green apple vodka
me: citrus vodka
susan: vanilla vodka
meiyan: red vodka
lala: blue vodka

all kinds of vodka....wahaha....oh well is girls night !
we CHEERS for it....cheers for all the good things to come....

then we started our chit chat n being camwhore ! ^^

suddenly, there come a random guy...trying to kacau after he got high with his alcohol i think...
talking all the nonsense, being laughing himself, i was like excuse me ~

okay....lala starting to said i m being lunci to that guy...so what?! i really cant stands him n i already hinting him to away by saying BYE BYE....n guess what? he still stick to our table.. OMG~
however, he finally back to his own table after few times visits....


i dedicated the song LOW n wish jessie early happy birthday...then since is our favorite song ofcoz we got some body movement along the music..^^

susan gave me a hug, n saying dun sad d k? forget the sad things... oh dear, is so touched n warm, i do feel like crying but i control my tears...

due to my curfew, so we leave scarlet at bout 11.15pm...n being camwhore with a huge poster at G floor ( jessie ideas)

while on the way back, the high way is brighten with lights n is actually kinda nice view of driving...n lala keep ask me got drunk anot... hello~ is just a glass of vodka my dear.... but somehow i do hope i really can drunk n pause my thinking awhile... but nvm...i still enjoy the night !

on the way back, i m emo again...errr....
i drive quietly, feelings back again....
yes.....my wound is not heal yet....not heal.....
here...still pain.....
guess need lots of healing process...

here comes with all the camwhore pictures.... :p



* camwhore at susan's mirror

* the girls night with vodka...




*my citrus vodka



* lala, jessie,ME,susan



*view from Scarlet, i love it !